My Old Friends.......

It's always good to see or meet your old friends, especially the ones who share a part of your life with. Today, I finally got some chances to meet my old friends, the ones who I knew when I first moved to United States for my study. I don't even remember how long we have not seen each other, probably three years or 4 years. Those friends are very important to me because they had helped go through a difficult period when I was so homesick.

Today we all met at my friend's funeral. I have a mixed feeling of this because I don't really want to meet my old friends in this kind of occasion. One of our friends passed away last week because of her cancer. We were all very sad to attend her funeral because we cannot believe that everything could happen so fast and we are not even ready to accept this fact now. We cannot really believe our friend who was 27 years old and who just started her career and life in her life path now. She just passed away without having any chances to say 'goodbye' to her beloved family and friends.

Attending my old friend's funeral makes me realize that it's never too late to do something you want and it's always important to treat yourself good. My friend passed away not only because she got cancer but also because she pretty much worked herself to death. She always wanted to be perfect (and so am I), but I know there is nothing perfect but there is something good enough than perfect.

I also realized how important it is to treasure your life and what you have. I always feel like if I can have something more, there is great because I want something more. But the more I want, the more I find myself unsatisfied and greedy. Is there anything more I really want for my life? I guess if I could make a list, I would say I wanted everything I want. Be realistic, there is no way to have all you want, but you can only choose what you really want.

I also realized that there is nothing important than the people who care and love you. I used to be thinking that there was nobody who really cared and loved me, except those who wanted to take advantage of me. (in fact, I was taken advantage of so many times because I never really said no to other people. I always wanted to please everyone.) However, throught this experience of going to that friend's funeral, I find that there are lots of people who love me and care about me, but I cannot see that when I am living in my own little world. Thank you all who love and care me and who are there for me all the time.

My friends and I were not sad to meet each other again in this kind of occasion but we are happy that we can see each other again and this experience makes us treasure more about our lives and friends and everyone who loves and cares about us.

I wanna say to the friend who passed away:
"You will be missed, Rita because you had been our sunshine who always brought us laughters and joy. You are not gone but you are just traveling in another place."

May us treasure more about our lives and everything we have already.